Los Angeles Actor Diary

And a trip down memory lane... I used to own a smoothie bar!

Jul 11, 2025

It’s funny how as an actor some days it feels like you’re in a contact state of failure, with absolutely no light at the end of the tunnel. Then, there’s days when everything feels possible, it’s like this indescribable energy that only comes when you’re truly going after your dreams.

Yesterday I felt flat, sure I can blame it on the full moon in Capricorn but lets be real, I feel flat when I’m not actively working towards my dreams. And these hasn’t been as many auditions this week. Which logically I know I s completely normal because LA is notoriously quiet in the Summer months as people escape and soak up a Euro-Summer.

And today I feel really positive, like anything is possible again. And nothing has changed other than I made it to a yoges class and had a meeting with my Aussie acting manager. But nothing changed on the work front, there’s been no new auditions, I haven’t magically scored a role I the next Quinton Tarantino feature film.

So I say this to say, is it all then just perspective and giving ourselves time to process, feel and experience all the things?

I had a Canadian roommate teach me a cool saying, well she was less of a roommate and more of a took me in when I had no place to stay in LA friend. Whenever either of us would have a rough day she’d day “Lola, tomorrow we’ll have a fresh mitt.” Meaning it’s a fresh start tomorrow. So maybe that’s all I needed, a fresh mitt, a new day.

Today, I was reminded of an old dream I had, and lived. Someone sent me a piccy memory on instagram from my old smoothie bar in Melbs I used to own. It was called “Happy Place Lola Berry” and we’d say happiness is real when its shared. That became the motto of our little smoothie bar.

It’s so strange to think back to this time, we had a smoothie bar 10 years ago and it was such a source of happiness and vibrant energy for 3 years. I remember selling it was such a hard choice for me to make; I was really emotional, and I was most sad about losing connections with the staff, customers, and partners in the business. It was such brilliant lesson to learn in my 20’s. I was full of passion and drive but I lacked logic and the patience to study and understand the P&L at the end of each day. Since then, I go into business with a different perspective, I try to see the whole picture and I’m not afraid to ask for help if I don’t understand something.

How does all of this help me today? Well, I think it’s taught me that passion, tenacity and drive are important, but you also need logic, steadiness and to be grounded even whilst chasing the big dreams. I guess that’s spoken like a Virgo Sun & Moon with Sagittarius rising, lol earth with fire.

Anyway, working on a smoothie bar dream was so lovely and I don’t regret a single second of it! Here’s some piccys of this adventure: