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The downside of meditating...

Righto, I’ve hit 70 days straight of meditating (75 to be exact). And we know all the plus’ like being more present, calmer, less reactive, clear minded.. the list goes on.

So what’s the downside to meditating every day? Seems like a weird sentence to write, but being honest is my whole jam so here goes…

First of all, as I write this I’m 75 days straight into this medi journey. so that just means i’ve gone from someone who’s resisted it with all of their might to someone that’s sticking to it, for how long i have no idea? Now to be fair, theres loads i love about meditating, and the good stuff most defiantly outweighs the bad. Here’s a quick recap of what I love about meditating:

• it’s a wonderful circuit breaker

• it’s made me realise how much unnecessary stress and worry I hang onto

• it’s given me the space to process things

• it’s helped me walk into stressful situations feeling more grounded

• it doesn’t mitigate fear but it definitely helps me welcome fear and the lessons it can bring

Now for the uncomfy, not so fun stuff meditation brings:

• it cracks your heart open, yes in a good way but that also feels, hard, strange and overwhelming at times

• it makes you feel a lot more sensitive

• I cry more (at lovely things, and at hard things) but as a control freak who likes to think they keep their emotions in check, this has been quite a big pill for me to swallow and accept about myself, i’m now a big cryer!

• I feel like real friends are rare, and at first, that realisation kind of sucked, then it made me appreciate the close true friends I do have

• This will sound hippie-dippy but I can feel energy more; like is someone’s intentions are off, I can feel it, and if I let it, it will upset me

• So all in all, these are pretty great things to be connecting to now, but i will say they can feel a little challenging and confronting at first. Don’t get me wrong, i’m glad for them, just didn’t expect them

Big love,

Lola

P.S. This is a piccy of Lennon, the little guide dog pup we’re co-fostering. More puppy spam to come!